Life has been rather crazy lately… a mixture of feelings and emotions that is not quite that easy to explain or put into words, but let me give it a try… This past month I have felt a combination of:
Amazement (both at the amazing stuff and the stupidity of some people)
Overwhelm (-ingness, -edness, I don’t know… I give up)
I know, it’s a lot. But at least, for once, I have time to feel and work through my emotions. For once, my emotions are 80% happy and only 20% kak. The thing is – the 20% is not caused by work, my family or my environment… it is caused by toxic people I find myself interacting with on social media. It annoys me that they have any impact at all on how I feel at all, and I think I need to take a few drastic steps to remove people like that from my life completely. It is easier said than done, but trust me – it really works. I do it now and then, I go through a list of people I follow on social media and I unfollow whoever I feel does not bring forth positive emotions.
I also need to make a conscious effort to “log off” more. This long weekend was absolutely incredible. I had so much fun with my family without even thinking about taking photo’s for Instagram or sharing it with the world. It was just us, no technology… and it was truly wonderful. I have decided that I will not be logging on to social media at all over the weekends, I think it will be a very interesting experiment!
I am still wrapping my head around being an entrepreneur and balancing working for myself and being a mom. It comes with its own set of unique challenges. It has been a busy month, and with being fully booked for May it is going to get even busier… but I am grateful, truly grateful for every single opportunity coming my way. I still stand by my decision, quitting my job was the best thing I had ever done for myself. Our family unit as a whole is so much happier, in fact – we are absolutely thriving. It was so worth it…
It has been a wild ride, but I am having the time of my life! So…
What am I excited about?
I am working with an amazing non-profit organization called Embrace on their Mother’s Day Connect Campaign. I am so excited to be part of it again this year, last year was a life changing experience. There is still time to sign-up, and we really need you. Please consider donating one hour of your Mother’s Day and spending it with a mom at your local government hospital or maternity unit. I have joined the team at Karl Bremer, and I am so amped. You can sign-up by clicking on this link -> http://www.embrace.org.za/campaigns/mothers-day-connect/
It is not exclusive to Cape Town, it is a nationwide initiative and we would appreciate all the support we can get!
I am also excited about the change of season, I LOVE Winter. I live for Winter… I love pretty much everything about it, including shopping for a seasonally apt wardrobe.
What am I accepting…
That not everyone is going to like me, and as one of my very dear friends recently told me “it’s lonely at the top, babe”. I am not everyone’s cup of tea, not everyone gets me and not everyone likes me. It has always and will always be that way. The good thing is that it is easy to filter out the crappy people, and those who remain will be my friends for life. I love and respect myself enough to not need validation from others, even though it is something we want. Want and need are two very different things.
What am I reading….
I have been reading The Book Of Joy: Lasting Happiness In A Changing World by Dalai Lama, Desmond Tutu and Douglas Abrams. I have wanted this book ever since it hit the shelves, I was just put off by the price tag. I finally got it… and DAMN. I am struggling to get into it… I don’t know why? I want to like it, I want to LOVE it, I want it to grab me… to blow my mind! It’s just not. Is it me? Have any of you read it?
What am I watching…
I just finished This Is Us, and you guys were right… IT IS INCREDIBLE! I cannot wait for more episodes to be released. I have also been watching all the Friends episodes from season 1 again and it has just confirmed to me that Friends is the best series ever made. No-one can convince me otherwise. Another firm favourite that I just started watching the other night is The Let Down… it is such a brilliant, funny and raw look into new motherhood. Do yourself a favour and watch it!
What am I listening to…
My husband recently played me this song and it has been on repeat in my office ever since. It is called Bring Me To Church by Hozier and I am obsessed. Check it out and let me know what you think? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PVjiKRfKpPI
Being my own boss and setting my own working hours. The fact that I am able to be there for my kids when they need me is incredible, a luxury I never had before. I also recently started painting again – for the first time in 7-years! I am really enjoying it, it has such a calming effect on me. I need a lot of practice though….
The next step for my blog… I need to re-evaluate where I am, what I want for it and how to go about achieving my goals!
Knox has been so good with saying please and thank you! I know it is a small win, but it is the small ones that add up in the end and make you feel like less of a failure. I have also managed o read them a bedtime story every single night for the past two weeks – super proud of that little fact!
Mikayla has been having a hard time fitting in at school. There is so much to say on this, but I think I am going to write a whole separate blog post on the matter. The thing is, I have come to the realization that my daughter is not a main stream school kind of kid, and I think I always knew – I just didn’t listen to the little voice in my head.
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