Every night I go to bed, promising myself that I would start writing again the next day, or post a beautiful Instagram photo, or connect with the moms in my social media tribe…. Yet I just never seem to get around to it. Sometimes I am too busy, sometimes I am too anxious, sometimes I am too much of a bad mom or wife, sometimes I am too depressed, sometimes I am too tired and sometimes I am just too damn lazy. There is always something else that needs my attention more urgently, and I can feel the pressure building in my chest from lack of being able to express myself creatively…
If I have to be completely honest – social media has felt like a heavy, dirty place lately… Not somewhere I would like to hang out at all. That being said, I also came to the realisation that it felt that way because I am following the wrong people. I am not engaging enough with my readers, not following their journeys as they follow mine and I am letting myself be dragged down by people who have no business dragging me down to begin with. I need to reclaim my space online in order for it to be a positive and constructive experience – how does social media make you feel lately? Maybe you should do the same?
I feel like I fell asleep on a roller coaster a few months ago and everyone left me here and forgot about me, and I kind of need to get off now. It’s not that life has been all bad. It has just been so damn busy, and I am not someone who wears her business as a badge of honour. Those of you who have been following me for long enough would know that I have spent the last three years chasing a simple life! Anyway, let me give you a little catch-up on what’s been happening so you can forgive me for being so quiet and move on with your lives…
We moved on the 1st of August – and it was a NIGHTMARE. We were so excited, we gave up our life on the farm for safety reasons and headed back into the suburbs. We were so excited to not have to maintain and manage a 7ha plot and massive house (everyone wants a big house until they actually have to clean one or start paying people to clean it), but also to be able to order Mr. Delivery again and not having to repeat directions to couriers 8 times a day. Something as simple as popping in at the shops to buy a loaf of bread is a total luxury to us. Anyway… back to moving day…
We were supposed to move in at 8am in the morning and our moving van was booked for 11am. Everything was planned perfectly around the kid’s school hours as to not upset their routine too much. The problem? The old tenants at our new place would not leave. It eventually came down to me standing outside the house at 1pm with our three dogs and refusing to leave until they handed over the keys… which they did. When I walked into the house, I just burst into tears. I put the dogs in the garden, locked up and went to collect the kids. I phoned the landlord and told her to go have a look at the house – the previous tenants had destroyed the place. They cracked all the tiles in the kitchen, removed all the light fixtures, broke the stove and burnt the edges of the bath. That’s not the worst of it though… they had left dog feces on the carpets in the bedrooms upstairs and had obviously locked their dogs in the rooms for quite some time as the smell was unbearable. The built-in cupboards were filled with old pizza boxes and cat food, there were stains on the walls and garbage everywhere…. there was no way that we could move in.
The landlord brought over three cleaners and we sorted the worst of it out while we put all our belongings in one of the better-off downstairs rooms. It took three days of professional deep cleaning for the house to be even close to clean. The stove needed to be replaced, and the carpets needed to be completely ripped out as the damage was too extensive. It was the worst three days ever… I cannot believe that people would do something like this. Anyway, that’s all over now – thank goodness. Unfortunately, all the drama with the previous tenants meant we could only actually move in 4 days later, and we only started unpacking our stuff about a week later. It was hell… we lived out of boxes and suitcases. Most of the time we could not find socks, or shoes, or clothes so we had to go buy new ones. We could not use the stove so we had takeaways or went to restaurants for lunch and supper. In theory that sounds pretty awesome, but the novelty of restaurant food wore off pretty quickly – especially when looking at my bank account.
A week after we moved in I was struck with a terrible flu that left me bedridden, and just as I got better – Knox ended up with it…. and as soon as Knox got better, Mikayla got sick – does this give you anxiety yet? In between this we hosted our first ever Blogging Workshop which was a huge success, and I had a few public speaking gigs as well as other brand commitments.
It was also my birthday, which I did not get to celebrate.
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Do I look tired? Exhausted? Wrecked? That's because I am. Mikayla has some sort of mystery illness (nothing serious), but it has left her with ulcers all over her mouth and in her throat (it is not hand, foot & mouth)… She is finding it incredibly hard to eat and drink, I'm trying my best to not just let her drink the entire bottle of nurofen. We haven't slept in a few days. I have to try sneak in work wherever possible, we are still unpacking the house, internet is a nightmare and life is just crazy. BUT… I'm here with her, we can watch Barbie, and I can hold her without worrying what my boss would say… And I am so grateful for that opportunity. I just feel so sorry for her… #realshit #momlife #mom #mothership #motherhood #mothercare #kids #tiredAF
We still have a few boxes to unpack, but we are a bit more settled in now. We love the new house, despite the rocky start and the neighbours are absolutely fantastic. The moving drama had a knock-on effect with everything else. I fell behind in all aspects of life and I am having the hardest time getting our internet sorted out. For the past week I have been in a bit of a slump – I am absolutely exhausted all the time, and I just don’t feel like doing anything productive at all.
It’s not all doom and gloom though – there have been loads of positives too. The kids have been amazing, Mikayla is really improving with her schoolwork and Cole and I are doing really well marriage-wise. I have a Jasmine bush in my backyard (I have always wanted one), and our close looks like Privet Drive in Harry Potter. I have signed a few amazing new clients and my digital marketing agency is growing every month. I have a lot to be grateful for, and I think we need to go through rough patches now and then to keep us humble!
Anyway, just take this as my “I’m baaaaaack biatches”!
I have such exciting things to share with you guys and I feel like I got a bit of inspiration back – so let’s see if I can stick to my new routine and actually be on here as often as I would like!
How has everyone else been? Did you even notice my absence?
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Hi guys! I'm still here… I've been quiet because work has been hectic, the move has been hectic and we have some big changes coming our way! Kids have been sick, I have been sick… And life has just been damn hectic. I don't know how women juggle it all. I'm just paddling along trying not to drown. Tonight however, we are going out to celebrate… Thanks for not going anywhere! 🤭 #momlife #parenting #selfie #instacool #inspiration #work #lifestyle #instapic #motivation #f4f #l4l #vsco #bestoftheday #photo #instadaily #picoftheday #followme #followfriday #me #loveit #instagood #photooftheday