My darling boy… today you turned three. I don’t know how it happened, I blinked and all of a sudden you were taller and your facial features have changed into that of a toddler.
My plan for today was much different to what it turned out to be. I was going to wake up at 4am, bake your cake before rushing off to work – and leave work as soon as possible to get home and decorate it. I was going to watch you open your presents with excitement and play with you while your favorite meal simmered on the stove. I was going to give you my undivided attention and shower you with hugs and kisses.
Instead – I overslept. Badly. I was late for work, which meant I left late for work. Dad picked up a cake at Pick ‘n Pay and you had pizza for supper. The cake was not chocolate like you requested, but a vanilla cake disguised as a chocolate cake… luckily you did not mind. You opened your presents, and you loved them… but I have been so insanely busy that I forgot to get batteries for it and you could not really play properly. I was in a bad mood, I had a bad few days and I am so tired. I am so stressed. Our house is still not unpacked. I am so sorry my baby… I got sidetracked in what a mess I made of your birthday and before I knew it, you were asleep. See, I am not always the best mom ever – I so badly want to be. You did not show an ounce of disappointment, yet I am so disappointed in myself. You fought so hard to be here with us today, this day should be celebrated in the most extravagant way.
I love you more than my heart can handle, my sweet little boy. This year has been a bit of a whirlwind and our family has suffered great loss and experienced extreme changes, but you have really found yourself and are pushing all the boundaries with your funky personality. You are naughty as all hell and totally spoiled – we will work on that. You drive your sister insane, but she is your world and the love you two have for each other makes every bad day worthwhile.
So here we are, entering the Threenager stage… I have no idea what to expect! If the terrible two’s were anything to go by, we are in for one hell of a ride. Every day with you is an adventure.
I love you my little Knoxiesox.
Happy Birthday, next year I will do better.